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"Everything else you grow out of, but you never recover from childhood. "



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My name is Ann
I was born a Female
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I'm the girl that wants to sail the world, without a paddle. To fly away without wings attached to my back. I'm a free spirit and I have a good heart. I'm the kid thats never picked for kickball, so I decide to sit on the side and draw on the pavement. I try not to get dramatic over things, and just find a better alternate.


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Wednesday, December 16, 2009
Between you and I, it has been a journey that we cannot forget. It has
been a journey of eight long, wonderful, but at times regretful years.
It has been the base of my life, you were structure to my stories told,
the pen when books were written. But then those eight years, they
started to frown on me, you started to alternate, transform on me, and
after repeated times, it became too much. This right here is written out
of my love, my heart, my soul. This is to let you know, how great of a
person you were and why I did what I did. Its because somehow you
changed, and sometimes sorry isn't enough.

I always was your voluntary guardian, the angel that watched over your
every step. I wanted to keep you safe, I still want you to remain safe.
I thought you the tricks, the skills, the ability to be the best you can
be. Ever since our first grade year that's what I was meant to do, but
now, I set you free because you're old enough to walk, run, and fly.
That you don't need me anymore.

Don't ever think I regretted our times together, baking cookies,
talking, just being with one another. I loved telling you things and
teaching you, to not care about anyone, that the greatest person you
should know is yourself. But sometimes, things got out of hand,where you
would lie to my face, the face that has always been there for you. That
you thought, lying would make me happy, even though you knew, I could
read you because I knew you. That everything you said, I would find out
about, but still you did it. I wish you didn't, and used the mind that
the world has given you.

You are a bright minded girl, but sometimes your action mutate that
image because you still are just too trapped into doing what others want
you to. That it is better to conform, then break free and fuck the rest.
That you have to lie, fake, and do things the childhood girl I knew
would never. Your head is not on straight, and with this, soon it may
fall off. Even when your mouth would spill secrets that I poured out
with my heart, and you would make mistakes, they were always
forgiveable. But what started as "changing a bit" just fortified, and
grew into someone I cannot recognize, even with my glasses on.

You changed, that the dependable, beautiful, smart, girl I knew
vanished, that I loved the girl I once knew. Im sorry I couldn't stand
it anymore, that hiding everything was too much because If I don't want
you to lie, I didn't want to either. I can't just smile and think of who
you were, life doesn't work as we wish and I had to let you go. Please
don't think this is to hurt you, because it hurts me more just writing
it. Its to let you know, our ride was memorable and that I'd never ask
for a redo. Now its time for you to fly alone little one.



Ann [ 7:46 PM ]